my life and god conection

unhone dard bhare swarme muje kaha" jab tum dukhi hote ho to mai dukhi ho jata hu, tum khush hote ho to mai bhi khus ho jata hu,rahi tumhare mother father ki bat to unka jivan kal pura hua tha,or wo kahi nahi- gaye dek mere pass hi hai-kahke unhone mere mather father ko visuiletion karwaya.maere mother father ne mera hal chal puccha or ghrke sabhi sdasya ka halchal pucha.or hai ke raj me koi dukh nahi hai kaha mai khus ho gaya(or mare dimagme ek naye adea ne janam bhi le liya)  unhone unko or laxmi godsses ko bhi visulite kiya. me aapne aapko dhanya samjne or anubhavne laga.unhone kaha" dekh aise sab deekhaee de raha hai na-or tumhari mata ka janam tumhare mama ke bete ke yaha hua hai or tumhare father ka janam 2009 ko tumhare bhai rajuke yaha hoga-jabki raju ko 9 salse koi baccha nahi paida hua tha or bahut davvaye karvayaee thi-(mane 2009 ko dekha ki rajuke yaha baccha paida hua uska name mane rakkha 'tanmay"- tab muje ye bate sahime sach lagne lagi) dhire dhire ye hua ki deviy logo ka aavan-jaavan mere ghar badh gaya. jab hari se meri ladai huee uske pale jab hari mere pass nahi aaya tha tab laxmi ek din rote huye mere pass aayi thi or kahne lagi" tumhare bhai ki or tumhri mind ki ek hi nas hai kyoki tum jo duniyake-(universke ) bhalaeeke bare me sochte ho wohi wo bhi sochta rahta hai -iska kuch karo- aisa kahke rone lagi our dur dur chali gayi-fir mai uske pass gaya mane uske pith par hath sahlate( ab mai unhe visulition me dekhne laga tha) usko sant karne ki kossis kar raha tha," laxmi ro mat uska kusna kus ho jayega" kahte kahe mere me sex jag uttha or maine usko aapni baaho me khichliyatha fir jo hua wo mai yaha nahi likh sakta, par wo karya karte karte uske jo uttejak swar sunayee dete the usse me usme sampurn sama gaya. usi baat ko mane hari ko puccha                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            " hari to fir wo kya tha jo tumhari pati meri baho me aagayi thi or aaj bhi aaake sex ki mang karti rahti hai" " mai sab kuch janta hu maire bhai, par tuje manoranjan deke khus jo rakhna tha,or vaisebhi tum abhi ke premi nahi ho- tum to ajbo saalse ek dusre ke premi ho- or waisebhi hum aaise nahi hai, tum humko aisa samjte ho"mane kaha" nahi mai aisa aaplogoko nahi samjta,par tum jante ho hari muje ye sex se hi naffrat hai, mai to ye sochata hu ki akhir tum bhagwan ho tumne ye sex ka-sarjan hi kyo kiya?' usne kaha "prjottpatti ke liye-or sex ka sarjan maine nahi kiya-wo to aadi -aanadi kaalse hai"  "absamja-agar tum sacche bhagwan hote to prajottpatti ke liye sex ka sarjan na karke koi or divya paddhti ka sarjan karte fir ye sex hi kyo? mere bhai tu kah raha hai ki mai sesh nag hu- jo tuje satra saya de raha hai-par mai kaise manu ki mai sesh nagka aavtar hu-mai thos sabutke bina manu hi nahina.' or ab sahi vakt aa gaya hai ki tumhe sach batane ki mai asalmai kon hu, kyoki koibhi baat kahne ke liye sahi vaktka intjar karta hu jo maine teri uttpati ke bad bhi abhi tak matlab 4laakhcaror  vars se battayi nahi hai,kyoki tu maire bare mai to sesh naag ke shiva kush janta hi nahi na?"